Friends,

Back in the day I would write out prayers/what was on my mind. I’d write them in a letter format. I feel the need to write another one. This is a continuation of yesterday’s post.

Christians, here’s your chance to tell me that I lack faith. Atheists, here’s your chance to pat me on the back agree with me.

Dear God,

I have to be honest with you…I’m a bit confused lately. You tell us that you love us, yet you condemn us to [tag]hell [/tag]if we don’t believe in you. Why would you create that type of world? Why would you create a world with people who didn’t believe in you? Why would you take those unbelievers and damn them to hell? I understand that you want us to love you, but why, in your original plans, did you draw it out like this? Why did you make that part about [tag]Adam and Eve[/tag] sinning? You wrote that, right? Was it really necessary to write the parts where you wipe out entire nations, women and children included? Was it really necessary to kill off the entire population with the exception of one man and his family on a boat because the world had turned their backs on you?? Who would do that? Did you really feel it necessary to put violence, disease, famine, sickness, suffering and pain in your story? Why would you write such a disgusting script? I just don’t get it.

The world is confused and as far as I know, it’s been confused for generations and generations. From what we’re taught, it seems like most people will be going to [tag]hell[/tag]. Is that really an act of love? Again, I understand we have choice, but isn’t this your plan??? Didn’t you write the script??

I can’t ever imagine thinking to myself, “I’m gonna make a race of people, introduce sin (and everything that comes with it) into the world, make it so people have an extremely hard time believing in me, and then when people die, if they didn’t believe in me, I’m gonna make them burn for [tag]eternity[/tag]. To be honest with you, it all seems a bit sick and disturbing. I really don’t get it.

With that said…

You’ve radically changed my life. I don’t for a second deny your existence. I will forever follow you. I also believe that you’ll honor my frustration and questions. Please forgive me if I’m way out of line, though. I ask that you strengthen my faith. Show me your ways. Allow me to be a part of a revolution. I don’t want my faith to be based on emotion. Emotion comes and goes. I want my faith to be real. Concrete. Solid. Challenge me and change me. I pray that you can use my openness for your benefit.

Your kid,

Bill

My faith is not shaken. I refuse to be anything but real, you got it? I have struggles. I have questions. I’m no different than you, except I’ll actually be honest about it.

Comments are closed. This is between me and God. If you’re dying to comment, visit this post. It is a response I wrote to a newspaper article entitled Size Does Matter.

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